So….this is the only place I can let out how I feel. How misunderstood I feel, how everyone deem that I’m the bad guy.
All I wanted to do was to make the person happy on top of my unhappy feelings. Well I’m human, I have emotions and feelings.
I am glad for friends who stood by me and understood my point of view.
But mostly, disappointment is the feeling I have of now. Disappointed that the person I care about, the person I hold close to heart doesn’t understand the effort I have put in to make things right after everything. It’s ok if the person doesn’t see from my point of view but at least I needed to see the efforts.
Sadly, I don’t. The reaction, the behaviour and the path the person has chosen to take upon hurts me but I’m tired, tired of fighting to make things right.
What’s been up with 2014.
It hasn’t gone all that smoothly.
Work has been crap but am glad some kind of solution has been come up with.
I hope that works out fine.
That aside, I don’t know what’s gg on w a pal; missing that kind of connection. Distant. Is there really such a big distance? It will be a pity if all the good connection and understanding goes down the drain.
Why does people like to give attention to people who I love to give attention to. I mean…find your own guilty pleasure. When I don’t focus on the person, no one does. So when I do, everyone’s jumping to have a piece. Seriously this annoys me. However strange my choice is, I kinda like exclusivity.
When everyone makes you the center of attention, it turns me away. I just don’t think there’s a need for me to give any anymore.